My State of mind ..... as defined perfectly by Hoobastank :)

I will dedicate
And sacrifice my everything for just a second's worth
Of how my story's ending
And I wish I could know if the directions that I take
And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Help me carry on
Assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
To navigate the darkness
Will the ending be ever coming suddenly?
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
So when and how will I know?
How much further do I have to go?
How much longer until I finally know?
Because I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me
In front of me
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer

hv been listenin to it for some days continuosly.... and really luving it for 2 reasons....
the lyrics and awwwwwwwwwwweeeeeesssssssssssssome GUITAR!!!! :D :)

Destiny, Life, Time n You...

This is yet another one from the philo dept. somethin tht is along the lines of the trajectory philosophy... the conclusions drawn in tht blog are fundamental to what i speak today : )

as i said.... life is a trajectory in an n-dimensional space... with i dunno how many attributes.... at each point u decide..... the decision changes the way the trajectory is goin.... and takes u somewhere else :) we reach there and wonder how in the world i reachd here?? hehehe trace ur trajectory back n u will find it out how :)

the uncontrollable part thoh are things like luck n destiny..... u can change it... i am a believer in the notion of destiny.... i feel destiny decides ur final destination.... tht may b wrt nything n everything...

ppl wish, pray, prepare, fight, aim etc.... for their ambitions.... for their goals.... for their destination! some reach them... some go ahead.... and the rest end up not reachin upto it... but they do reach somewhere else coz of the varius changes n decisiions made by them pursuing their goal.... and tht exctly is wht destiny is all bout :) it decides WHERE u reach.... it decides WHAT u get :) a person takes decisions.... he makes choices... and each n every move of his changes his trajectory.... and reaches where he is supposed to reach :) another notion mite say.... ur choices/decisions change ur destiny... but who knos.... mebbe ur destiny influences ur decisions/choices tht u make!! :) whtever is the outcome.... thts ur destiny... u gotta live with it!! :)

another factor tht can affect it is the TIME..... it decides wen u reach where u r supposed to.... time taken to reach there is decided by ur decisions/choices.... some may reach in days... some months.. some yrs.... but u will certainly reach ur destiny :)

............... am waiting to reach mine :)

Cell Fone..... then, today n tomo.....

I hv been wondering over the past few days bout the usage of my cell fone.... and then i drifted smoothly into the past.... some yrs back wen i got my first cell fone.... and fones after tht.... and i found a typical pattern which i will trace it out today..... :)

my first one was nokia 3350.... the only nokia i ever carried.... bought it in my second yr engg and had very lil sms space... it was given to me to b in touch with home... and was allowed to carry it to my college... but the college didnt allow it :D so it was tht secrecy tht was maintained while callin from college and without ny fear when outside. the usage was only sms n calls... thts wht it supported then :D

time went by and i graduated.... got into my masters and it was time tht i switched my cell fone... and so i did.... went for my first samsung... sgh-s500... a cute lil flip fone... with colors.... :)
it was then the usage had changed.... still the smses ruled..... this time it changed from plain text messages like "where r u?" to fwds.... may it b jokes, some senti 4 liner, some targetted friendly n philo mssgs :D not to forget the special good mornin n gud nite mssgs :)

another use of the cell fones then was a missd call... it just meant u r missin tht person ... hehehe exchanged it a lot.... sometimes alternately... returnin the missd calls with more missd ones :) some time of the day was reserved to remind frnds tht i miss them.... and expecting to get back a prompt reminder from them of the same :) the normal usage of the calls was kept to a minimum and used only for special purposes :D

then it was time for samsung d-500 ... a sexy sliding piece.... with many more options.... unfortunately it was taken away from me lately and am still sad bout it :( the rule was not to call nyone.... not to send sms to nyone..... just receive calls and smses.... since the payment was in Euros :D only local calls to local friends were made n tht to askin... hv u got today's groceries!!?? :D the habit formed there continued in india as well.... so the usage had changed.... calls only wen required.... and sms almost negligible.... tht too to negligible ppl....

after the loss came another sliding one.... e-250... coming to think of it.... am into the multiples of 250! :D well the usage has again changed to simple ttext messgs and calls hv increased since it easier to tlk than to keep typing :D

all said ....my cell fone usage was at its best with s500.... those were incidently the best days i ever lived in....after tht .......... its never been so lively.... never waited lookin at the cell fone expcting somethin.... its now a plain professional approach towads the calls... where u get a surprise or two once a while.... which r still very delightful :) a cell fone then was a tool to b in touch with frnds and even use it to express oneslf..... now its just a means to communicate and set reminders.... :)

who knos bout the future... :) not bout the models.... not bout the usage... nothin.....

but one thing ccan b easily concluded.... a man's persona can b analyzed lookin at his usage of the cell fone... next time u wanna kno someone.... get hold of his cell fone n skim thru it :) a cell fone really tlks :)

Reviving....

The blog seems to be idle for quite sometime now. Theres so much to write and so much to convey... from the most happening world news to somethin on a personal front. But time is something that is always against you... and more so in my case! Consequently, the blog update will be slow but it will be updated.

The revival comes after a quarter of an year of hibernation... a much needed one indeed...! Living a new life is not easy... especially after a close encounter with the inevitable. The outlook changes drastically towards life... towards looking at things... towards ur behavior... u can feel the changes in urslf... and most importantly u learn, adapt and live again to see another day :)

Living assumes new meaning.... life assumes a different level of importance... and it just adds a new face to ur personality.

Thankfully, the blog and i learn, adapt and live again to key down another day... adding a new meanin and face to respective aspects... hopefully good this time round :)

Reservation Killing India... My letter to the President of India

Honorable President of India,

I am a student of IIT Bombay who would like to voice my opinion on the reservation bill that has been proposed. I am aware that the President cannot influence the bill directly but I want you to know the plight of the students across India.

During my admissions for engineering, I had secured 90% and wanted a seat in Telecommunications Engg. in a good college. But I missed the seat by 2 marks and later on I found that a 'reserved' student with 65% had secured the seat. This event happens every year all over India in all disciplines. It is a disheartening sight for a student who works day and night for fulfilling his/her career dreams and doesnt get what he/she deserves.

IITs and IIMs, which are India's pride will now face the same future which our already victimized universities of India are facing. A deserving student will miss the seat by a mark or two and a career will be ending. However, that still wont guarantee the beginning of another career as many of the reserved candidates drop out in the successive years and ultimately the seat is 'wasted'.

I am not completely against reservations. The students below the poverty line do need reservations to ultimately enable them to earn themselves a living. But these poor people are not from any specific category. There are General Category students who are indeed poor but have no reservations. These students will be the most who will suffer out of these reservations. The reserved candidates who are already rich, will become more rich and poor will remain poor.

I share the same dream which has been stated in the President's speech and I have kept a printed copy of that speech after being encouraged from it. I with my fellow friends who opt for Indian Institutes over the foreign Universities want India to be a developed nation with all Indians living a life of high standards. Even in this situation, one will not want his/her children to miss a seat by a mark to an undeserving candidate. Out of this scare, many students will opt to go outside and serve a foreign country where the talent and merit are a priority over caste and creed. I am sorry to let you know that you will have far less capable students who would work towards India's development in the wake of these insecurities. The reservations are inducing an apathetic feeling towards India which will adversely affect India.

Our politicians and office bearers need to look beyond just collecting vote banks and work towards building a strong future generation for India.

I am terribly sorry if my views are biased agaisnt the reserved category. I have no personal grudges but I only seek a fair chance for the general category to pursue our endeavors.

Thanking You.

Yours truly,
Sanand Sule

The Trajectory Philosophy...

Today i will try to tell u the reasonin behind the name of my hyperlink... undefined trajectory. as nyone wud guess its related to my life and my description can go a bit mathematical... so if u cant understand plz drop me a mssg... and yaa this is just wat i strted thinkin bout... so my theory is just in its infancy... ny suggestions over it are welcome :)

So... its like this... i consider my life as a trajectory in n-dimensional space. to explain what tht is... well... for a 2-d plane we hv x co-ordinate and y co-ordinate. and we can then draw a graph... similarly an n-dimensional space will have n co-ordinate axes... each independent of each other. u cannot try to imagine how it can b drawn.... as it comes under the realms of abstract algebra theory. to give u an example... the world around us (physical) is 4 dimensional. 3 being the spatial axes... and the 4th being the abstract time axis. scientists believe there's 5th dimension... but thts not the topic of discussion here.

Now, for life... u have many dimensions.. many axes. time being again one of them. it starts with our birth (t=0) and ends when we are dead. so tht defines one quadrant. the other axes which i term as 'attributes' defines us wholly. as abstract as this can get... the number of dimensions a person has as of now can be considered to be n=unknown. but to give u an idea what these attributes can mean... i will giv examples.... u can have attributes like happiness, richness, goodness, intelligence and even things like.... fitness, capacity to eat, drink, smoke... etc. so u can see the no. of dimensions can and is quite a large number for a person. the negative axes of each wud correspond to the opposite of the above stated and unstated attributes. the only non negative axis is the time axis...

After the algebraic definitions of life... lets dwelve into the question of how much we can influence it ourselves and wht the term... "life is wat u get and make out of urselves" really mean. For this we will go into a bit of control theory... to be more precise ... state space analysis. the point at which we are in time will be defined by the n-tuple (nx1 state vector) and the efforts we put in... eg.. study, read, write, say, do.... all are the inputs... and the change caused by these inputs will be our new state. the output can be somethin that can be seen by the external world as the effect of our input as its impossible to see what ur state is... after each input u give to ur state. in other words... ur state of trajectory is not observable... but what about controllability??? tht exctly will specify how much u control ur life...:)

some ppl want to be rich, some to b successful in academics.... some just dunno what to do!!... for each of them... evryone defines or sets a 'target' state for oneself. one want to reach that point in sometime.... basically they want to take the trajectory to the desired point.... with the desired point varying from person to person... theres no upper limit for any state or any particular axis... except again the time.... but then we compare our attributes with other trajectories on that particular axis.... for example.... a guy says he wants to be rich... so on the richness axis.... the largest value is possessed presently by Bill Gates... so if someone gets a bigger value then he/she wud be the richest person on Earth. so its basically all relative.... relative to other trajectories.... :) Conjecture: Life is Relative.

Now to attain that particular target state in that particular axis... a person gives effort. and tries to get to tht state. gettin to tht state is sometimes in one's hand and sometimes its not.... so.. to get rich is not in ones hand.... and to get a control on drinkin or smokin is in ones hand. Thus,
Conjecture: Life is not completely controllable.

So this was the initial analysis of the trajectory theory of one's life without taking into consideration the external effects on tht trajectory. these external effects being influence of the trajectories around a trajectory. each trajectory is surrounded by many other trajectories... like our parents, relatives, friends etc... In the initial period of one's life, our trajectories are influenced solely by our parents and more or less by relatives and then later on by our friends, our boss, colleagues, children, their children etc. The following conjecture naturally follows.
Conjecture: The more the close a trajectory is to one's trajectory... the more the influence.

At evry point of time each trajectory is moving to achieve its target state by constantly applying inputs to itself. so at evry input... it affects its own state and it also has a coupling effect on neighbourin trajectories which radially goes away from the trajectory and the effect dies off with growing distance.

This is just a process of defining life that i have begun with a view to simplify it... its said.... life's unfair... and life's complicated.... i hope this helps... helps in simplifying... helps in givin life some credit for wht it is :)

My 'Undefined' Trajectory: With perfectly defined trajectory and target states, i applied inputs and with it my attributes updated.... additions in some and subtractions in some of them... with these additions and subtractions and the accompanied coupling effects... my trajectory has come to a position where i no more can see where my trajectory is goin.... and with what possible inputs i can nullify tht. coz of all this... it is now undefined.... just travellin in time ... unaware of its direction....

My Regret: Not taking into account the state updation of my trajectory... it is the coupling effect of my inputs that i regret.... i nevr knew it wud b this.... and i nevr wanted it to b this... nevr!

A Science Fiction Case...

i am a complete movie freak... and a gr8 fan of the movie "The Matrix" and its sequels. after watchin the movie i couldnt help thinkin.... is tht thing possible?? well... human machine interface changin to human machine interaction changin further to human machine fight!! hmmm... i believe it can happen!

given the situation today when we are developing faster machines.... there is a group of people developing the intelligence for these fast machines. terminator showed humanoids fighting with humans... but matrix had robotic bugs... really big and ruthless killers. machines dont hv emotions... they run on things like logic which is programmed into them. if this logic says protect and save.... these things will do it... if told to kill... they will kill!!! following blindly the programs doesnt make them dumb... but shows insensitiveness and unemotional and the "logical" attitude of machines.

AI as its called ... the intelligence of the machine is being developed. one day your washing machine will shout at you for overloading it with stinking clothes. your desktop will ridicule you for making programming errors and many such stuff... basically intelligence will let a machine think and act all by himself!!

but one doesnt think... with intelligence... these machines wud be less mathematical.... less logical.... the scenarios in the movie shows how machines turn against humans and try to annihilate humans... the act of fighting is termed as anger, avenge etc... if machines cud develop those things... cant they develop love, sympathy and peace??? it is a tricky question to answer which only machines can answer...

as of now... i think we are facing a nebelous future of machinekind... not aware of how it will evolve and behave.... and can only hope that the matrix and terminator scenarios wont come true !

Movie makers has showed us the dark side of AI.... taking the que from natural intelligence of humans, i guess, in which we all are out to destroy whatever we are seeing..... for a moment i will leave with a thought.... on a brighter side....

God made humans intelligent.... humans made a mess out of it!!!
Humans are making machines intelligent... mebbe machines will put things back in place :)